I have been restless lately and have been trying to sort out the reasons!

We just came through Thanksgiving celebrations and a season of being so grateful for all that we have. We have had the other mother’s children for seven and a half months now and they have become part of the family almost seamlessly. I am so grateful for friends and family who have put action behind their words and helped us out with time, stuff, money and support as we travel this road.

The other mother is still absent from her children’s lives and her mental health issues have led to her missing some critical moments for her children. This breaks my heart and I am thankful that we have the resources to be present for them and love them in the here and now. So much to be thankful for!

So why do I find myself unsatisfied and wanting more?

We are surrounded by advertising and pressure to buy and give on all sides. The images flashed constantly before us are of happy people, sparkling settings, fabulous food and abundance. We are pressured to come up with Christmas lists, buy amazing presents for everyone we know and celebrate with feasting everywhere we go. It all feels like too much to me. My reality often doesn’t match up with the images, and the budget doesn’t allow for the excesses. I want simple.

And yet I want more!!

If thanksgiving was a time to be content with what we have and be thankful for all we enjoy, maybe Christmas is a time to want more!

But instead of more stuff… like all the advertising wants us to believe we need to enjoy the sparkle of the season..

I want more…

  • Peace in our homes, in our relationships, in our hearts and minds. Peace that provides a safe place for the hurting to rest and feel safe. Peace that surrounds us like a bubble that shields us as we walk through the messy world in which we live. If we can hang on to that kind of peace there will be more peace on earth.
  • Love expressed through actions! Not just sappy words on a card or platitudes said in passing to the hurting and the lonely. Real, get your hands dirty, sacrifice something to help others, love. The love in action that actually reaches out and does the things that demonstrate that people are valuable no matter what. The kind that changes things for people.
  • Joy that settles deep in your soul and lingers. I appreciate a Facebook meme that makes you giggle but that is not the same as joy. I want everyone to experience the joy of being themselves unabashedly and knowing it’s OK. The kind of joy that bubbles over into uncontrollable belly laughs that leave you with tears streaming down your face feeling better than you have in weeks!
  • Hope that gives us a reason to look ahead and anticipate the coming year. When so much of the news is negative and we are bombarded with “climate change”, “economic downturn” , “rising unemployment”… the list continues, how do we choose to see the future for ourselves, our children, our children’s children. As we navigate the foster system how do we speak hope to the other mother, to her children and to ourselves! I want every person to look ahead with hope in spite of the lay off, in spite of the cancer diagnosis, in spite of the broken relationships that cause us pain and in spite of whatever wants to drag us to place where tomorrow doesn’t look appealing or possible.

I want more!!

So may you dare to want more in the New Year for all the right reasons!

Merry Christmas to all and may the gifts under your tree include peace, love, joy and hope!

In the midst of the mess,


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